Category: Blog

Bubbling Beneath the Surface

Something occurred to me today that I’d never really considered before: I cannot remember a time — like, ever — that I didn’t feel anxious. Now I’m not talking about full-blown, panic-inducing anxiety here. I’m simply talking about that underlying nervous energy that bubbles just beneath my surface at absolutely all times. And has since […]

Staying in the Deep End

My twins will be 5 tomorrow, and I truly cannot believe it. The sad reality is that I have very little recollection of how we got here. I spent the first two years in complete shock, denial and terror that I actually had twins, and sought out every type of helper I could just to […]

Next Generation Worry

I’ve spent a lifetime understanding, coming to terms with and managing my own anxiety. Though it continues to flare up at times — after the death of my father, after I suffered a bleed in my brain, after the births of my children, and during all of 2020 — I’ve grown far better at learning […]

Wake Up and Pay Attention

Have you ever blindly ignored your intuition? I have… too many times to count. It hurts, doesn’t it? Like, when you completely disregard what your insides are telling you, you begin to feel this storm swirl deep inside your belly. If you’re like me, it gets stronger and more aggressive over time, soon wreaking full-on […]

Good Mommy

For as long as I can remember, I wanted to be a mom. As a kid, I was obsessed with my dolls — I used to pretend they were each my child, and I would spend hours carefully deliberating over their names, their style of clothes, and how to best take care of them. I […]

Getting off the Train

When I was a kid, there was a rule in my house: when I came home from school, before I could play or call my friends on the phone to chat, I needed to get my homework done first. A total rule-follower, this never bothered me. In fact, over time, I grew to quite like […]

Surviving Dad – 13 Years Later

13 years ago today, at about 9 in the morning, I received what would be my very last email from my dad. It wasn’t a profound email or anything; if memory serves me correctly, it was just a forward of some silly joke passed onto him by his golf pals. But for years, I saved […]

The Shared Journey

Writing–and connecting with others through the written word–is truly my life-force; it is how I attribute meaning to and make sense of the world. We all have a narrative, and I am passionate about sharing mine in an effort to bridge the gaps between people, expose our similarities, and increase acceptance of one another. I […]

2020’s Lesson: How to Pivot and Shift Gears

As you may have learned from my blog, going with the flow is not my strong suit. That said, 2020 has forced me (and all of us, really) to practice “rolling with the punches” over and over and over again. I really love knowing what’s going to happen, planning, sticking with a familiar and consistent […]

Strong and Worthy

Something happened, gradually at first, like tiny pinpricks I wasn’t even sure were real. Then, over time, the pricks got stronger and more painful — so much so that the anguish began to impede my life in all the big and small ways; the debilitating anxiety that I’d worked so hard to quell (and had […]