Tag: twins

One Year

March 10, 2016 Tonight is a bittersweet one. I sit here with tears in my eyes, on the eve of my fraternal twins’ first birthday, unable to believe that we have made it through this challenging, exhausting, beautiful, amazing year. One year ago tonight, I was terrified. Excited, yes, but also tremendously terrified. I had […]

The Twin Parenting Advice I Couldn’t Follow

When my twins, now 11 months, first arrived, I was hell-bent on keeping them on the same schedule. After all, that was the sage advice everyone with multiples gave me: one up, both up; one down, both down. And so I tried. Believe me when I tell you how very hard I tried. I wanted […]

Dear First Born

Dear First Born, You amaze me. I meticulously tried to prepare you for the arrival of your twin sisters, now 11 months. I bought all the books. I brought you to ultrasound appointments so you could see the babies swimming around in Mommy’s belly. We took a Big Sibling class where you learned how to […]

Seeking Light in the Dark

I always assumed depression was a condition one endured, then moved on from. With time, perhaps medicine, therapy, a good support network, I figured it was somewhat linear: you suffer, then recover. And if the condition is chronic, perhaps the suffering will re-emerge at another point in life, but the trajectory will be the same. […]

The New Normal

Since the birth of the twins I’ve been having a tough time deciding what to do with my life. I mean, aside from what I feel is one of the most important tasks currently at hand: raising three uniquely tempered little individuals. But prior to this game-changer of a role, I was a writer who […]

This Ship Won’t Sink

After my last pregnancy, our family suffered. I have been open about sharing my struggles with Postpartum Anxiety and Depression. There were several factors that I believe contributed to the decline my emotional, physical and mental health, but two of the biggest were my tight-fisted clench on control (and the panic I had – and […]

Family of 5

It’s been a while since I last wrote. I’ve been meaning to update here for so, so long, but I’ve been just slightly busy birthing, recovering from c-section, and now taking care of my twins (and preschooler)! The girls are now 10.5 weeks old, and over the last few months I’ve learned so much about […]

You were the First

I bought you a book called You Were the First, and as I read it to you, a heavy stream of tears fell from my eyes. You didn’t seem to understand the message of this book, that you were—are—my first baby, the one who transformed from just a person to parent, and that soon, you […]

Seeing Double

On Thursday, July 30th, 2015, Robb and I found out some incredible (and truly life-altering) news: we are pregnant with TWINS. Let that sink in for a minute. TWINS. As in, TWO. TWO BABIES. In my tummy. Who will, God-willing, exit my tummy in 9 months and join big sister, Harper, to complete our (what […]