Unwanted Intruder
I’m going to be honest. My anxiety has resurged recently. I don’t have the kind of anxiety where my mind is constantly filled with worries and what-if scenarios (though I do experience this too…). My anxiety feels exceptionally physiological. Like a hijacker has completely taken over my body, from the inside out, and I have […]
Let’s Get Real
Let’s get real. Life is not a series of calculated and perfectly crafted Facebook moments. Life is raw and honest. It’s good and it’s bad. It is full of ups and downs. It is really easy to look at friends’ Facebook accounts and see photos of their beautifully dressed and well-mannered families, while you sit […]
Seeking Light in the Dark
I always assumed depression was a condition one endured, then moved on from. With time, perhaps medicine, therapy, a good support network, I figured it was somewhat linear: you suffer, then recover. And if the condition is chronic, perhaps the suffering will re-emerge at another point in life, but the trajectory will be the same. […]
The New Normal
Since the birth of the twins I’ve been having a tough time deciding what to do with my life. I mean, aside from what I feel is one of the most important tasks currently at hand: raising three uniquely tempered little individuals. But prior to this game-changer of a role, I was a writer who […]
This Ship Won’t Sink
After my last pregnancy, our family suffered. I have been open about sharing my struggles with Postpartum Anxiety and Depression. There were several factors that I believe contributed to the decline my emotional, physical and mental health, but two of the biggest were my tight-fisted clench on control (and the panic I had – and […]
Family of 5
It’s been a while since I last wrote. I’ve been meaning to update here for so, so long, but I’ve been just slightly busy birthing, recovering from c-section, and now taking care of my twins (and preschooler)! The girls are now 10.5 weeks old, and over the last few months I’ve learned so much about […]
Small Miracles
Though I just posted, I had to share about this incredible day. First and foremost, I went to my OB this afternoon and had a growth ultrasound. I find this insanely hard to believe, but the growth estimation is that Baby A is 5 lbs 10 oz, and Baby B is 5 lbs 8 oz! […]
On Prenatal and Postpartum Wellbeing
It’s no secret that I suffered massively from what I now know were Postpartum Depression and Anxiety during and for at least a year-and-a-half after my last pregnancy. While I absolutely loved being pregnant, many of those nine months were filled with panic-inducing worry, stress and terror. I was terrified I wouldn’t be able to […]
You were the First
I bought you a book called You Were the First, and as I read it to you, a heavy stream of tears fell from my eyes. You didn’t seem to understand the message of this book, that you were—are—my first baby, the one who transformed from just a person to parent, and that soon, you […]
Seeing Double
On Thursday, July 30th, 2015, Robb and I found out some incredible (and truly life-altering) news: we are pregnant with TWINS. Let that sink in for a minute. TWINS. As in, TWO. TWO BABIES. In my tummy. Who will, God-willing, exit my tummy in 9 months and join big sister, Harper, to complete our (what […]