Tag: anxiety

Handling Life as it Comes

Living life off the cuff — that’s what this entire blog is about;  being able to go with the flow, take life as it comes, handle whatever comes my way. As I write those terribly cliche phrases, I can’t help but feel my anxiety rise up from the tips of my toes straight up my […]

Be Kind…Always

After I had my twins, life was…challenging. I had lined up helpers in advance, because I knew how hard it was going to be, and also because I knew me. I have a history of anxiety, and had already battled postpartum depression and anxiety. I know exactly what stress, busy-ness and lack of sleep does […]

A Different Mother

Lately I have been thinking a lot about the fact that my first child and my twins have an exceptionally different mother. I mean, it’s still me – I am all three children’s mother, but many components of my parenting and personality are vastly different this second go-around as compared with the first.  When I […]

Fighting Parenting Anxiety and Learning to Back Off and Observe

When I was younger, I always wanted a twin sister. I didn’t actually realize this was an impossibility until I was maybe 7 or 8. And even then, this realization didn’t stop me from desiring it so, so badly. I was always a nervous, anxious kid. I didn’t have anxiety in the way that it […]

Regaining Self

Losing one’s identity can be a difficult part of early parenthood. At least, this has been the case in my experience. Before being a parent, I was so many things and I had enough passion to fill an entire room. That passion is not gone, it’s just channeled into different things – because it has […]

Unwanted Intruder

I’m going to be honest. My anxiety has resurged recently. I don’t have the kind of anxiety where my mind is constantly filled with worries and what-if scenarios (though I do experience this too…). My anxiety feels exceptionally physiological. Like a hijacker has completely taken over my body, from the inside out, and I have […]

Seeking Light in the Dark

I always assumed depression was a condition one endured, then moved on from. With time, perhaps medicine, therapy, a good support network, I figured it was somewhat linear: you suffer, then recover. And if the condition is chronic, perhaps the suffering will re-emerge at another point in life, but the trajectory will be the same. […]

Small Miracles

Though I just posted, I had to share about this incredible day. First and foremost, I went to my OB this afternoon and had a growth ultrasound. I find this insanely hard to believe, but the growth estimation is that Baby A is 5 lbs 10 oz, and Baby B is 5 lbs 8 oz! […]